The Kennedy Curse

Edward Kennedy was found to have a brain tumor today. Yet another Kennedy that's life will most likely end at a young age. Is it the Kennedy Curse? Or is it life? The reality that death can come at any moment has been fresh in my mind lately. I have always been a paranoid person, if my skull feels uneven, I have a tumor, if I'm breathing funny, I have a disease. It's always something with me. This morning I had a terrible nosebleed, I never have nosebleeds. It was profusely bleeding for close to a minute, and the thoughts in my head were that I was going to pass out, bleed to death, and no one was going to find me. But here I am now, at work, and totally fine. Except for that I now fear the blood went back into my brain and is creating unusual clotting. Do I watch too much House and Grey's Anatomy? mmm possibly. Whatever it may be, I have an increasing paranoia that there is something internally wrong with me, and that when it surfaces it might be too late.

I also freak myself out at night thinking there is a burglar that has come into my house. All my roommates are gone for a month, I'm feeling incredibly vulnerable.

Just checked out CNN for the day, Obama is looking FANTASTIC. It looks as if Clinton is severely losing her base. I think people are starting to realize that both of them are incredibly qualified, but Obama is winning the race. Everyone loves a winner. She is an incredibly accomplished woman. I admire her for her strengths. I would want nothing more than a woman president, but I want a woman that worked her way up on her own, not piggybacking her husband to the top. I truly believe that Hillary Rodham could have made a name for herself on her own. She is a more than capable woman. But now she has too much baggage, I just don't respect her. I want to respect my president. I want a woman to look up to. Hillary isn't that woman. I used to think it was Nancy Pelosi, but she's been wavering lately. I need a new woman politician to look up to. I still love Arianna Huffington, even though she's never officially held an office, excellent writer with incredible intelligence.

My day looks promising today. I am heading to Rancho for the day to spend some time with my brother. He must be going stir crazy being at home all the time. And going to the movies wouldn't help any, he would be very uncomfortable sitting for that long. There aren't any good movies out until this weekend anyways. I hate motorcycles. I don't want to be that girl that gets freaked out by a man that drives a motorcycle. But I think I have every right to be paranoid about those death mobiles.

Off for the day...

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